Down 23 lbs!!
my chest is ACHING.
The winter is killing my skin. It’s amazing. I seriously can’t recall a time when my skin has been so dry.
someone please tell me why i am up???
for the love of god, why cant i get organized??
surgery approved. next item surgery.
ugh. why can’t i function in the morning? this is getting out of hand.
There is this part of me that is absolutely ridiculous. I feed myself these lies about everything to make myself feel better about whatever.. and then I really think I start to believe them, you know, like if you say something enough eventually it becomes true… but it doesn’t ever really, well to anyone else but you. im so confused about so many things i dont even know where to start. i dont actually know the difference between whats real.. and what i have made up in my head.
i dont need to push my best friend away. he’s doing enough of that for the both of us.
its just another sad day.
i should have been at work 23 minutes ago.
how could i fall back asleep??
